Thursday, July 18, 2013

Misplaced Motivation

So I get a lot done. Sorta. I'll explain in a second. But I used to hope when I become a mom, I'll get up early, and be dressed and beautiful for the day, and the house will always be clean because I won't want to just sit around all day. Cause you know, those feelings/desires come once you have a child. And so far that's sorta true.

I work now. Well, I go to work. If I actually work depends. But I'm up early, to make sure I have time to take care of Logan, and me and be out the door. Somedays I barely make it up in time to feed Logan, get bottles for the day, and get myself out the door looking half way decent. Other days, I'm up, dressed, baby's fed, I've eaten AND somehow make it to the grocery store all before Chris comes home from work at 9/930am. Go me. And then every night [when I'm not scrapbooking like a slacker] I have at least an hour of just me being awake time that I do the dishes, clean the kitchen [mostly because it's the furthest room from the sleeping boys] and generally get stuff done. My thought for this is I finally have a second from holding the baby, or taking care of someone, that I can get stuff done without looking over my shoulder to see if the baby's crying. I have a monitor that follows me around and that way I don't have to wonder. But for some reason the past few nights I've spent at least an hour scrapbooking. However, I'm almost caught up. Go me again. One of these days I'll get caught up and in that hour fold the basket of laundry camping out in my living room. Along with the 3 others in my bedroom. Hence- misplaced motivation. I'm super motivated to scrapbook. Or load the dishwasher. Because I love having one. Even if it doesn't rinse 100%.

What else. It's been a while.

Utah was wonderful. Logan did so well on the planes. All 4 of them. And did great on the red-eye flight home I was dreading since people plan to sleep and baby's don't care what you have planned, especially sleep. But he did so well. It was wonderful seeing family. I wish my husband had come so he can continue to get to know my family and have fun with them. And being a sorta single mom for a week was no fun. Especially in the airport. Everyone loved Logan. They said he's adorable, perfect, etc etc. All the wonderful things you hear. He was kind of cranky, but I chock that up to not being home, and traveling 20 hours a day and not having his bed, etc. Poor guy didn't know what was going on. Mom and Derek just ate him up. He's super cute so I know ! We got tons of pictures of my great grandpa with him [Logan's great-great grandpa, 5 generations, yup!] and that was pretty much a main motivation for the trip. I love that man ! So Utah was a success. Can't wait until we can go and stay for cabin time. I want to go to Jamber days eventually. And I'm sure Chris will love the camping, 4wheeler-ing time.

Work has been good. I think I'd be crying every day if I didn't like my co-workers. It was more hard the Sunday knowing I was leaving. Now I kiss him goodbye, start to get choked up and run out the door before my brain dwells on it. I miss him. Thank goodness for FaceTime which is absolute torture and Chris being bored during the day so he visits. I definitely miss my little guy. I love being able to go home and Chris is more than ready to pass him off so I get him to snuggle and play and just make up for lost time. Then I look around the house and see all the cleaning that needs to get done, but I remember this super sweet poem:

Mother, O' Mother, come shake out your cloth,
Empty the dustpan, poison the moth.
Hang out the washing, make up the bed,
Sew on a button and butter the bread.

Where is the mother whose house is so shocking?
She's up in the nursery, blissfully rocking.
Oh, I've grown as shiftless as Little Boy Blue,
Lullaby, rockaby, lullaby loo.
Dishes are waiting and bills are past due,
Pat-a-cake, darling, and peek - peekaboo.
The shopping's not done and there's nothing for stew,
And out in the yard there's a hullabaloo.
But I'm playing Kanga and this is my Roo.
Look! Aren't his eyes the most wonderful hue?
Lullaby, rockaby, lullaby loo.

The cleaning and scrubbing can wait till tomorrow,
But children grow up, as I've learned to my sorrow.
So quiet down cobwebs; Dust go to sleep!
I'm rocking my baby and babies don't keep.
~ Ruth Hulbert Hamilton


Goodness reading that makes me want to cry. ::sniffle:: And that's my justification for not having a spotless house. Chris is the mommy right now so mommy's clean. Yeah right..!

We had Logan's blessing this past Sunday too. He's adorable. His outfit fit perfectly ! Thank you Aunt Linda ! I can't wait to frame it and keep it forever and ever. Chris was absolutely perfect blessing him. He got choked up, blessing his baby boy. I can't imagine the feeling. But it was the best knowing my husband holds the Priesthood and can bless my baby. My dad never could. There was a time in my life I thought I'd never marry a member and he wouldn't be able to either. But in that moment hearing Chris say those words with the right authority just melted my heart. It makes everything worth it. Being married in the Temple, having those same goals, the same ideals, and watching those goals play themselves out. Perfection. It was a perfect moment. I can't wait until Chris can baptize him too. This whole Mormon household thing is new to me !

We also had Coral [my neice's] baptism later that day. It was packed. So many Perry's. We also had her family skyped in so they could be a part of it and her mom gave a talk. It was pretty spectacular. And at the end all the Perry's there stood up front and sang "Families Can Be Together Forever" and seeing the whole family up there singing it was pretty incredible. That many people, active, shooting for the same thing- eternity together. I love it. I love the church. Check it out sometime. www.mormon.org

Ok. Pictures !

Hanging out with Grandma [teehee!]

Wasn't too happy meeting Grandpa great-great
I'll have better happy baby pictures of this later

Logan Nicholas meeting Logan Nikolaus !

Hanging out with mommy at Temple Square!

My super happy cute 2 month old baby <3

The only one I have so far from his blessing day. I love it !

Monday, July 8, 2013

No one said it was fair

My baby is huge. Not really. 12lbs 10 oz and 24 inches long. Geez !
He busts out of his 3 month old clothes.
Why is he growing up so fast.

This has been the fastest two months of my life.
I'm absolutely dreading going back to work in a few hours.
Not because I don't love it, or adore my co-workers.
I love my baby more.
Obviously,

Utah was wonderful.
I'll update later when I feel up to it.
I'm being a "debbie downer"

If you're a stay at home mom... don't complain.
Don't take it for granted.

I'm sure I'd have my days and wish I could work and get away.
But so far... None. Nada. Zero. Zip.

But at least I get to come home and see him every night.
I'll get a cute night time routine for us.
At least I'm not far away 24/7.
At least his dad gets to stay home with him.
And not some random stranger, or acquaintance.

We are so extremely blessed.
Things have worked out better than I could have every imagined.

"...if I will not open the windows of Heaven, and pour you out a blessing, that there shall not be room enough to receive it." Malachi 3:10

No more complaining.
Just blessing-counting.

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