Yay for updates ! I probably get more excited than whoever reads this when I update. It's like a little badge of honor for keeping this up. ::Pat on my back::
So, now for an update. Don't hold me to this; this is not an official statement. But I doubt we're going to Utah. Just the risk of it all... doesn't really seem worth it. Why? So... but like I said. That's not final, that's not official. It's just what we're leaning towards.
But, we also might have summer plans. Which I'm super excited about, cause I get to quit my job. Woot ! So Nick (Chris' brother) has had a position open up in his team for the security system installations that I can take. Before Chris wanted to go, but I'd have to stay behind and that's not going to happen. And I'm not going to go and just tag along cause that's a waste of time and no making money. So now that there's a position for me and Chris. It's in Texas. Which is close to so much, like Mert, and my bff Katherine and her new (to be) baby will be two hours away. And the job sounds sorta intense, but I think once I figure out my rhythm and the most efficient way to do it, I'll be set. I would take calls, relay between sales and techs, keep the forms up, etc. Nothing too intense. Weirdly, the job I have now has taught me that kinda organization stuff :] And then Chris will go off and be an installation tech, and make good money. Nick reassured us that the sales team is awesome, and we should be pretty busy. It's sad cause we wouldn't have long periods of time off to go travel, mostly just mornings, and then Sundays. But there's temples SUPER close. And we'll be with family. We get a super nice apt that might (probably will) have a pool and a gym. Sweet. No ugly wood walls.
We'll have to drive both cars down, which I'm not super thrilled about, but everyone kept saying I won't want to be stranded. Whatever. But that's the tentative-ish plan. Nick is calling the company people today to see if he has that privilege to fill that position and to even hire me. If not, sad day. I can't tell you how much I fantasize about quitting my job. Especially if we leave in May. Thats only 2 1/2 ish months. I'd probably quit early. Just to be a slacker. Get my leave paid out. Sa-weet ! Oh dreams <3 I hope this works. I think it'd be fun to get away for a few months, have a nice place, make so sweet money.
The downside, is when its over in August and we have to come back. Where do we live? Our old apts are so hard to get into we might as well put in an application as soon as we move out. Cause we probably still won't have one available. And then work :/ arg. I'll probably be applying to everywhere all summer with an availability starting in Aug as soon as we're back. But let's be serious. I've been applying to everything since Sept... look how that's turned out. Great ...? So... I'll just get somewhere to start making money, bring something in. Since we'll have the money from the summer. But obviously we won't want to use that. Disney here I come ! (in aug haha)
So we'll see. Life. At least we know we're staying. Or thinking we're staying. We'll see what Nick says today.
Monday, March 12, 2012
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
The way my brain works
So I had a fun thought. Well, I've had this fun thought, and the other day I tried explaining it to Chris so it can be done. But I'm afraid he didn't get it as a boy. So, I'm putting it in here, so when the time comes I can send the link and get it done.
So it has to do with babies. And I know it will be a while but I'm a planner and I get things taken care of ahead of time. I love the idea of not knowing what I'm going to have. I wish I was born a while ago so I wouldn't have the option and know any different then having a surprise when the baby's born. But now a days, it's just not practical. With everything you need, and I don't want a bunch of weird unisex things. I have a very sex specific decor in mind for boy vs girl. So, I was thinking of a way for there to still be a surprise. It all spawned with a cake I saw for a way to reveal the gender of a baby. On the outside you don't know, but once you cut into it, it's either blue or pink and then you know. Tada. Make sense. Well... I thought about how fun that'd be and having it at a baby shower but then people would buy gifts and not know until they get there and I don't like returning things that much.
So, my idea :] And I'm super excited if it works out. Since I'm a genius and always ruin my surprises. But I'm hoping since I'm planning my own surprise it will work.
So, here's how it would work. I'd go to the doctors with Chris and whether Chris wants to know or not, whatever. But when they got to the point to tell us what the baby was, either A) they can tell Chris and he'd just have to keep the secret or B) they can write it down and I'd give it to.. someone, probably Angel. Whoever. And so... we still don't know. So we go about our normal lives and register for baby stuff, boy and girl. And then its baby shower time. So Angel/whoever send out the invites and on there it will say what the sex is... but shh. its a surprise don't tell Haley. [I can totally see this part being ruined and someone letting something slip] Then the people can buy us gender specific stuff from our registry without us knowing.
So how will we find out? I want it to be at the baby shower. I want to have the room decorated with either boy or girl. My dream is to have minnie/pink for girls or mickey/blue for boys. So I can be blindfolded, or the lights off or something fun. And then if Chris doesn't know he can come to the shower too, but we'd walk in and then we'd know ! And we can be excited or not excited haha But how fun would that be to have on camera !
So that's my idea. Then all our gifts wouldn't be for the wrong sex, and we wouldn't have to return things [unless we just didn't like them] and it would all be good fun.
It's the only way I can figure out how to have a surprise but still be able to know before the baby's born. Now I'm excited that this idea is out there. Maybe if it ever happens I can make a post about that :]
And PS. sarah, Chris and I had "the talk" today... thought you'd wanna know :p
So it has to do with babies. And I know it will be a while but I'm a planner and I get things taken care of ahead of time. I love the idea of not knowing what I'm going to have. I wish I was born a while ago so I wouldn't have the option and know any different then having a surprise when the baby's born. But now a days, it's just not practical. With everything you need, and I don't want a bunch of weird unisex things. I have a very sex specific decor in mind for boy vs girl. So, I was thinking of a way for there to still be a surprise. It all spawned with a cake I saw for a way to reveal the gender of a baby. On the outside you don't know, but once you cut into it, it's either blue or pink and then you know. Tada. Make sense. Well... I thought about how fun that'd be and having it at a baby shower but then people would buy gifts and not know until they get there and I don't like returning things that much.
So, my idea :] And I'm super excited if it works out. Since I'm a genius and always ruin my surprises. But I'm hoping since I'm planning my own surprise it will work.
So, here's how it would work. I'd go to the doctors with Chris and whether Chris wants to know or not, whatever. But when they got to the point to tell us what the baby was, either A) they can tell Chris and he'd just have to keep the secret or B) they can write it down and I'd give it to.. someone, probably Angel. Whoever. And so... we still don't know. So we go about our normal lives and register for baby stuff, boy and girl. And then its baby shower time. So Angel/whoever send out the invites and on there it will say what the sex is... but shh. its a surprise don't tell Haley. [I can totally see this part being ruined and someone letting something slip] Then the people can buy us gender specific stuff from our registry without us knowing.
So how will we find out? I want it to be at the baby shower. I want to have the room decorated with either boy or girl. My dream is to have minnie/pink for girls or mickey/blue for boys. So I can be blindfolded, or the lights off or something fun. And then if Chris doesn't know he can come to the shower too, but we'd walk in and then we'd know ! And we can be excited or not excited haha But how fun would that be to have on camera !
So that's my idea. Then all our gifts wouldn't be for the wrong sex, and we wouldn't have to return things [unless we just didn't like them] and it would all be good fun.
It's the only way I can figure out how to have a surprise but still be able to know before the baby's born. Now I'm excited that this idea is out there. Maybe if it ever happens I can make a post about that :]
And PS. sarah, Chris and I had "the talk" today... thought you'd wanna know :p
Monday, March 5, 2012
Consistency !
So I thought I'd update whoever reads this on what's going on.
Chris got into BYU. Yay ! Class starts June 18th.We've gotta let BYU know by May 1st. Yay for decision making time. It makes me frustrated that so many people were upset and assumed we were automatically leaving. So I'd get all these "rude" remarks but they were said with a smile or a laugh or JK so I guess I can't take them seriously. But everyone's like Chris can go, but we want you to stay. Or I don't like what I heard. Especially from people I have hardly any contact with. Why does it matter to you? Anger ! So those people I want to just tell off and then leave, just to spite them.
But then I have the wonderful people that listen to me about my concerns, and want whats best for us. Those are my favorites. I always just tell everyone, we're just trying to do the right thing. We want to be where we're supposed to be, where the Lord wants us. And I get 2 responses. 1) I understand that and good luck with deciding. 2)Oh I already know and its here. Oh, YOU know what we're supposed to do with our lives? OH God told YOU what we're supposed to be doing... oh that must be nice.
Sorry, this seems mean. I promise I'm typing this with a smile.
But our decisions (mostly mine) are back and forth and I can't seem to pin down one or the other. As soon as I mentally decide on one i think of all these things good or bad and flip flop to the other. I can't ever make a decision. I told someone yesterday that I'm going to just make a talley and keep track of who tells us to stay and go and we'll go with the opposite of the majority. Right now its like 20 to stay and 2 to leave. So... unfortunately, we won't make our decision that way.
Our biggest concerns are: Chris' credits, which all transfer, but most of them are electives. I'm worried since really, who needs that many electives, that he's going to be behind in school out there to catch up in the curriculum. And I don't want him in school any longer than he has to be. And we don't even know yet if he can get into the business school out there. School is tougher and I don't want him having any trouble passing classes and prolonging graduation. Here at Marshall, he's got his major, he's got his schedule figured out, and we have an end point. And he's got a good degree in mind that I'm a fan of him getting. So that's big concern #1.
Number 2, is money. Well more specifically my job. So I can get a job in a lab or whatever, paying pretty close to what I make now. But I'm afraid it actually might come out to be a pay cut. And even if I make the same amount as here, the cost of living is higher. So I should make more. And bills always stress me out. And how will Chris do handling a tougher curriculum and trying to work :/ So money is a huge thing for me. Regardless of where I'm living. I stress about it now and we pay practically nothing in our apt.
But we both do want to go to Utah. There are so many reasons to go. We want the environment out there, and they people. I miss having good LDS people around that I won't have to worry about conversations and what they get into. I hate some of the things I hear people talking about here and it makes me sad. Sarah I love you, this is not a reflection on you. And I don't only want to have LDS people in my life. Its hard to explain. But I can explain my thought process to you. Especially since I'm sure if I put my true feelings on here someone might feel like I'm talking about them and then that won't be good.
There's a lot of other little-ish things. But we're kind of at a stand still. We've prayed and fasted and prayed some more. We sorta discussed it seriously for the first time yesterday. Which was nice. I think we need a little bit more time than the few minutes or however long we talked about it. But it does look like we're narrowing it down. I'm not sure if we're happy about it or not. It's weird.
And I'm wondering how I tell people? Should we make a big banner? Or just FB it like we did when we found out he got in, mass text? I dunno lol
So that's my update. My concerns, and then nothing really to go on :] I'm sure I just confused people more or frustrated them more about what we're doing! Sorry !
Chris got into BYU. Yay ! Class starts June 18th.We've gotta let BYU know by May 1st. Yay for decision making time. It makes me frustrated that so many people were upset and assumed we were automatically leaving. So I'd get all these "rude" remarks but they were said with a smile or a laugh or JK so I guess I can't take them seriously. But everyone's like Chris can go, but we want you to stay. Or I don't like what I heard. Especially from people I have hardly any contact with. Why does it matter to you? Anger ! So those people I want to just tell off and then leave, just to spite them.
But then I have the wonderful people that listen to me about my concerns, and want whats best for us. Those are my favorites. I always just tell everyone, we're just trying to do the right thing. We want to be where we're supposed to be, where the Lord wants us. And I get 2 responses. 1) I understand that and good luck with deciding. 2)Oh I already know and its here. Oh, YOU know what we're supposed to do with our lives? OH God told YOU what we're supposed to be doing... oh that must be nice.
Sorry, this seems mean. I promise I'm typing this with a smile.
But our decisions (mostly mine) are back and forth and I can't seem to pin down one or the other. As soon as I mentally decide on one i think of all these things good or bad and flip flop to the other. I can't ever make a decision. I told someone yesterday that I'm going to just make a talley and keep track of who tells us to stay and go and we'll go with the opposite of the majority. Right now its like 20 to stay and 2 to leave. So... unfortunately, we won't make our decision that way.
Our biggest concerns are: Chris' credits, which all transfer, but most of them are electives. I'm worried since really, who needs that many electives, that he's going to be behind in school out there to catch up in the curriculum. And I don't want him in school any longer than he has to be. And we don't even know yet if he can get into the business school out there. School is tougher and I don't want him having any trouble passing classes and prolonging graduation. Here at Marshall, he's got his major, he's got his schedule figured out, and we have an end point. And he's got a good degree in mind that I'm a fan of him getting. So that's big concern #1.
Number 2, is money. Well more specifically my job. So I can get a job in a lab or whatever, paying pretty close to what I make now. But I'm afraid it actually might come out to be a pay cut. And even if I make the same amount as here, the cost of living is higher. So I should make more. And bills always stress me out. And how will Chris do handling a tougher curriculum and trying to work :/ So money is a huge thing for me. Regardless of where I'm living. I stress about it now and we pay practically nothing in our apt.
But we both do want to go to Utah. There are so many reasons to go. We want the environment out there, and they people. I miss having good LDS people around that I won't have to worry about conversations and what they get into. I hate some of the things I hear people talking about here and it makes me sad. Sarah I love you, this is not a reflection on you. And I don't only want to have LDS people in my life. Its hard to explain. But I can explain my thought process to you. Especially since I'm sure if I put my true feelings on here someone might feel like I'm talking about them and then that won't be good.
There's a lot of other little-ish things. But we're kind of at a stand still. We've prayed and fasted and prayed some more. We sorta discussed it seriously for the first time yesterday. Which was nice. I think we need a little bit more time than the few minutes or however long we talked about it. But it does look like we're narrowing it down. I'm not sure if we're happy about it or not. It's weird.
And I'm wondering how I tell people? Should we make a big banner? Or just FB it like we did when we found out he got in, mass text? I dunno lol
So that's my update. My concerns, and then nothing really to go on :] I'm sure I just confused people more or frustrated them more about what we're doing! Sorry !
Thursday, February 23, 2012
I need subject matter!
I'd like to think I could be a consistent blogger, and have fun posts that people want to read. But even when I think, hey I want to blog today, I have no idea what to blog about. I know if should just put something, so Sarah can have something to read, but I seem to have too high of standards for my posts. I'm sorry !
So, we went skiing/snowboarding yesterday. Chris has been a few times before. I've never been. I was really anti- the idea at first because I didn't want to be bedridden for the next few days and broken bones scare me. And all those clips on Americas Funniest Home Videos of skiers crashing into things or people... that would be me. But things came together and I reluctantly decided to go, well not too reluctantly. I knew Chris would have fun watching me. So I can be the comedic relief for the day :]
It was a perfect day. Even kinda warm. Which we layered for cold weather, so that was interesting. But I have my new skier-esque jacket and goggles, gloves, skis all the fun stuff that made me look the part. Missed ski school, so we had to wait. In the mean time, lets go down the scariest first hill EVER. I fell. Obviously. My only experience to relate to skiing is Wii skiing... not so comparable. Nintendo lies. But it was fun. After ski school, which totally helps, for me at least. So don't let people lie to you about how pointless it is. Then we just skied. Chris was all over the place on his board, on the crazy high mountains, whipping around everywhere. I never really got to watch him go down one, since he doesn't know the mountain well enough to tell me where he's coming down. And I'm NOT going up on those crazy ones. All in all it was a blast. The day went a lot better than I thought it would. I was exhausted from not getting any sleep and getting up early. But I can walk today. And I'm not broken. No one's broken.
And now for the fun part of the day. We were on our way home and had to run into a hospital to use their ATM (random I know..) and I noticed hey, no one broke anything. We didn't need to take anyone here ! Yay us. And we had quite a few beginners, and daredevils, and a little one. So, that's an accomplishment. Anyways, so we're heading home, its ~930pm ish. 2 hour drive. We're all tired. I swear the road tried to kill Chris axle.. but we get to Hurricane to get gas, and lo and behold we have a flat tire. For how long? If it was the crazy bump thing that I thought was trying to kill us, we were driving on it for a loooong time. And didn't even feel a difference. How is that possible? So instead of unloading all our wet nasty ski clothes, Chris gets the fix-a-flat bottle stuff, blows the tire back up. Just to get us home and then we can get a new one the next day. Well, we start back on the interstate and its make this crazy noise, and wobbling the car. It was almost like putting the tire on and tightening the lug nuts crooked and you get all shaky and there's an ugly noise. And Nick's saying, my tire did that right before it popped. Great... And what did you know. Not even a mile out of Hurricane the tire just blows. Scariest sound ever ! Thank goodness we were expecting it and Chris was going slow.
Ok, now we'll unload the junk from the trunk (te he) and get the spare and all that work blahblahblah. The spare is a used doughnut, with practically 0 tread. This thing was horrible. We're going to die. Go to take the tire off, the T-tool thing we had wasn't the right size to get these lug nuts off... Uh, now what... Highway Patrol to the rescue ! Got the spare on. Realized it was so flat. Had to drive SO slow to Milton, and pump it up. Ok... now can we go home?
And all this time Chris is getting really upset. Obviously. Who wouldn't? It was one thing after the other. It was already way past midnight and we'd been up early, skiing all day, exhausted. And usually I'm the one to lose patience. But my thought was still, no one's had to go to the hospital. I really think we were driving on the flat tire for the longest time and it was raining. Why didn't we swerve, or feel it, or anything? It was like the car was normal until we stopped for gas. So many things could have gone wrong. But I honestly think we were being watched over. I know people say that all the time. But I'd had the weirdest, almost paranoid, feeling since the day before that something was going to happen. I thought it was me hitting a tree, or breaking a bone for the first time. And once we left the ski place, my thought was sweet, we missed all the bad things. But we didn't. I know we were protected. There were too many conditions set against us for us to arrive safely home, just maybe a lot later than we planned. 1am vs 11pm. But we were ok. And I don't know why this meant so much to me. Even sitting on the side of the road waiting, and thinking about how we could have swerved off the road in the mountains in the rain.. I got all choked up. I'm such a sucker. But it really, I don't know. Just meant something.
But that was my moment. Yesterday was probably the best and worst of days for Chris. I had a blast and I'm so glad a hospital wasn't needed. I love knowing that we're being watched over instead of chocking it up to good luck, or somethings stupid.
Ok Sarah? This was a long one :] I'll try to keep my eye out for some blogging material and try to keep up with this. I know I always say that. And I appreciate the friendly reminders !
Nick and Chris wanted to stay later. How much fun would this tire debacle have been 2 hours later..
So, we went skiing/snowboarding yesterday. Chris has been a few times before. I've never been. I was really anti- the idea at first because I didn't want to be bedridden for the next few days and broken bones scare me. And all those clips on Americas Funniest Home Videos of skiers crashing into things or people... that would be me. But things came together and I reluctantly decided to go, well not too reluctantly. I knew Chris would have fun watching me. So I can be the comedic relief for the day :]
It was a perfect day. Even kinda warm. Which we layered for cold weather, so that was interesting. But I have my new skier-esque jacket and goggles, gloves, skis all the fun stuff that made me look the part. Missed ski school, so we had to wait. In the mean time, lets go down the scariest first hill EVER. I fell. Obviously. My only experience to relate to skiing is Wii skiing... not so comparable. Nintendo lies. But it was fun. After ski school, which totally helps, for me at least. So don't let people lie to you about how pointless it is. Then we just skied. Chris was all over the place on his board, on the crazy high mountains, whipping around everywhere. I never really got to watch him go down one, since he doesn't know the mountain well enough to tell me where he's coming down. And I'm NOT going up on those crazy ones. All in all it was a blast. The day went a lot better than I thought it would. I was exhausted from not getting any sleep and getting up early. But I can walk today. And I'm not broken. No one's broken.
And now for the fun part of the day. We were on our way home and had to run into a hospital to use their ATM (random I know..) and I noticed hey, no one broke anything. We didn't need to take anyone here ! Yay us. And we had quite a few beginners, and daredevils, and a little one. So, that's an accomplishment. Anyways, so we're heading home, its ~930pm ish. 2 hour drive. We're all tired. I swear the road tried to kill Chris axle.. but we get to Hurricane to get gas, and lo and behold we have a flat tire. For how long? If it was the crazy bump thing that I thought was trying to kill us, we were driving on it for a loooong time. And didn't even feel a difference. How is that possible? So instead of unloading all our wet nasty ski clothes, Chris gets the fix-a-flat bottle stuff, blows the tire back up. Just to get us home and then we can get a new one the next day. Well, we start back on the interstate and its make this crazy noise, and wobbling the car. It was almost like putting the tire on and tightening the lug nuts crooked and you get all shaky and there's an ugly noise. And Nick's saying, my tire did that right before it popped. Great... And what did you know. Not even a mile out of Hurricane the tire just blows. Scariest sound ever ! Thank goodness we were expecting it and Chris was going slow.
Ok, now we'll unload the junk from the trunk (te he) and get the spare and all that work blahblahblah. The spare is a used doughnut, with practically 0 tread. This thing was horrible. We're going to die. Go to take the tire off, the T-tool thing we had wasn't the right size to get these lug nuts off... Uh, now what... Highway Patrol to the rescue ! Got the spare on. Realized it was so flat. Had to drive SO slow to Milton, and pump it up. Ok... now can we go home?
And all this time Chris is getting really upset. Obviously. Who wouldn't? It was one thing after the other. It was already way past midnight and we'd been up early, skiing all day, exhausted. And usually I'm the one to lose patience. But my thought was still, no one's had to go to the hospital. I really think we were driving on the flat tire for the longest time and it was raining. Why didn't we swerve, or feel it, or anything? It was like the car was normal until we stopped for gas. So many things could have gone wrong. But I honestly think we were being watched over. I know people say that all the time. But I'd had the weirdest, almost paranoid, feeling since the day before that something was going to happen. I thought it was me hitting a tree, or breaking a bone for the first time. And once we left the ski place, my thought was sweet, we missed all the bad things. But we didn't. I know we were protected. There were too many conditions set against us for us to arrive safely home, just maybe a lot later than we planned. 1am vs 11pm. But we were ok. And I don't know why this meant so much to me. Even sitting on the side of the road waiting, and thinking about how we could have swerved off the road in the mountains in the rain.. I got all choked up. I'm such a sucker. But it really, I don't know. Just meant something.
But that was my moment. Yesterday was probably the best and worst of days for Chris. I had a blast and I'm so glad a hospital wasn't needed. I love knowing that we're being watched over instead of chocking it up to good luck, or somethings stupid.
Ok Sarah? This was a long one :] I'll try to keep my eye out for some blogging material and try to keep up with this. I know I always say that. And I appreciate the friendly reminders !
Nick and Chris wanted to stay later. How much fun would this tire debacle have been 2 hours later..
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Patience is the word.
So I know I just updated like 3 days ago. I don't care. I was having a thought and wanted to get it out of my head.
So I complain, and I get frustrated. Probably more than I should. But at the same time, I pray about it, and try to rely on the Lord and faith. He knows what He's doing, so chill Haley. Well I'm working on being better at it. I shouldn't take forever to get to that point, I should just be there, always.
So forever I've been applying to jobs right. Since about September. And things just weren't working out here, so we applied Chris to school at BYU in November. And since then its been wait. Waiting for everything!! But, all the while, I'm thinking, Haley, the Lord's got this. He'll let you know what to do when the time's right.
I have this saying in my house "Faith in the Lord includes Faith in His timing." Big reminder for me. So I've been waiting, we've been waiting. Just keeping our heads down. Waiting. Faithful. Until His help is revealed.
Well, I was just thinking about it in the past ~2 weeks: I've had a job intereview for the Rec Center, a job interview for the Bank, a heads up about a job here at Marshall, that may be Heaven sent, Chris got a heads up about a guaranteed flying opportunity in the USMC... all this stuff. Right within days of each other. Give us another two weeks and we find out about BYU and then we'll really know whats going on !
So my whole big point. Since Sept, there really hasn't been much, just me being frustrated and wanting direction, something, anything ! But I was being taught patience. And now, now that it's the right time, now we start getting some action. Now we get our options laid before us and go from there. You think after all these little patience lessons I've had, I would have learned by now... Nope. Still learning.
"Faith in the Lord includes Faith in His timing." - Neal A. Maxwell <3
So I complain, and I get frustrated. Probably more than I should. But at the same time, I pray about it, and try to rely on the Lord and faith. He knows what He's doing, so chill Haley. Well I'm working on being better at it. I shouldn't take forever to get to that point, I should just be there, always.
So forever I've been applying to jobs right. Since about September. And things just weren't working out here, so we applied Chris to school at BYU in November. And since then its been wait. Waiting for everything!! But, all the while, I'm thinking, Haley, the Lord's got this. He'll let you know what to do when the time's right.
I have this saying in my house "Faith in the Lord includes Faith in His timing." Big reminder for me. So I've been waiting, we've been waiting. Just keeping our heads down. Waiting. Faithful. Until His help is revealed.
Well, I was just thinking about it in the past ~2 weeks: I've had a job intereview for the Rec Center, a job interview for the Bank, a heads up about a job here at Marshall, that may be Heaven sent, Chris got a heads up about a guaranteed flying opportunity in the USMC... all this stuff. Right within days of each other. Give us another two weeks and we find out about BYU and then we'll really know whats going on !
So my whole big point. Since Sept, there really hasn't been much, just me being frustrated and wanting direction, something, anything ! But I was being taught patience. And now, now that it's the right time, now we start getting some action. Now we get our options laid before us and go from there. You think after all these little patience lessons I've had, I would have learned by now... Nope. Still learning.
"Faith in the Lord includes Faith in His timing." - Neal A. Maxwell <3
Monday, January 9, 2012
I thought I was doing good !
Man ! I guess if Sarah isn't reminding me to update I completely forget I even have this blog. That's a lie. It did cross my mind a time or two, but hey, it was Christmas time, and life gets pretty crazy !
Life has been pretty hectic. But not at the same time. There has been no snow, except for that one day. So Chris hasn't been working. And we both agreed, the instant he gets another job is when the snow will just blanket for months. So we decided to wait. That was like 2 months ago lol Oh well. He starts his 4th semester today. Now he'll have something to do. I can't believe we'll be here for 2 years at this end of this semester. I don't stay anywhere this long ! Weird. We hear back from BYU in the next few weeks. But we're getting all this stuff thrown at us, so we don't really know what to do. Chris got contacted by the Marines about becoming an officer in the Marine Corps and then you are guaranteed a pilots slot. No other branch can guarantee a pilot's slot. Because usually they can't. We're looking into it, and seeing how real this is. So far it looks legit. It's SO much schooling, 2 summers (6weeks) for Officer's Candidate School, then TBS (another schooling reviewing the schooling you've already had) which is 6 months (!!) then 18-24months of flight school, THEN you get to fly. But its only 8 years instead of 10. So add in all the schooling and it about evens out. And he can start now. AH, who knows. I don't! So if he gets into BYU, but this Marine thing works, then do we stay?
I'm still trying to find other work. Dang benefits or I'd quit and have two part time jobs. I'm fine with that :] I got the job at the rec center, which I don't think I'm taking. But that and Disney, and I'd be set :] But hopefully this job doesn't suck the life out of me like I'm expecting. And maybe this Chemistry thing will pan out.. who knows !
Other than knowing what to do with our lives, things have been pretty same old. I started teaching piano. I feel so underqualified. Like I should have been trained or something. I doubt myself too much. But as of right now, I have 3 students. Oh yeah ! A few more interested. So that makes life a little enjoyable.
I don't have any profound Spiritual thoughts at the moment. I've noticed how much "easier" (for lack of a better word) life has gotten since I've stopped trying to control everything, and get disappointed. I'm just coasting. Along for the ride. I've put in my two cents, but I'm letting the Lord take me where ever He sees fit. That's why we've got so many options for us right now because Chris and I just want to do what we're supposed to or go where we're supposed to. I've stopped caring. Not really, but I'm not as adamant. Bloom where you're planted right? I've got family here, friends are starting to pop up, work (I'm trying to deal with a smile) and I love Church and my calling. There are so many reasons to be happy, why do I choose not to notice?
Curses haha I'm trying to get better ! We'll see what happens in the next few weeks !
Life has been pretty hectic. But not at the same time. There has been no snow, except for that one day. So Chris hasn't been working. And we both agreed, the instant he gets another job is when the snow will just blanket for months. So we decided to wait. That was like 2 months ago lol Oh well. He starts his 4th semester today. Now he'll have something to do. I can't believe we'll be here for 2 years at this end of this semester. I don't stay anywhere this long ! Weird. We hear back from BYU in the next few weeks. But we're getting all this stuff thrown at us, so we don't really know what to do. Chris got contacted by the Marines about becoming an officer in the Marine Corps and then you are guaranteed a pilots slot. No other branch can guarantee a pilot's slot. Because usually they can't. We're looking into it, and seeing how real this is. So far it looks legit. It's SO much schooling, 2 summers (6weeks) for Officer's Candidate School, then TBS (another schooling reviewing the schooling you've already had) which is 6 months (!!) then 18-24months of flight school, THEN you get to fly. But its only 8 years instead of 10. So add in all the schooling and it about evens out. And he can start now. AH, who knows. I don't! So if he gets into BYU, but this Marine thing works, then do we stay?
I'm still trying to find other work. Dang benefits or I'd quit and have two part time jobs. I'm fine with that :] I got the job at the rec center, which I don't think I'm taking. But that and Disney, and I'd be set :] But hopefully this job doesn't suck the life out of me like I'm expecting. And maybe this Chemistry thing will pan out.. who knows !
Other than knowing what to do with our lives, things have been pretty same old. I started teaching piano. I feel so underqualified. Like I should have been trained or something. I doubt myself too much. But as of right now, I have 3 students. Oh yeah ! A few more interested. So that makes life a little enjoyable.
I don't have any profound Spiritual thoughts at the moment. I've noticed how much "easier" (for lack of a better word) life has gotten since I've stopped trying to control everything, and get disappointed. I'm just coasting. Along for the ride. I've put in my two cents, but I'm letting the Lord take me where ever He sees fit. That's why we've got so many options for us right now because Chris and I just want to do what we're supposed to or go where we're supposed to. I've stopped caring. Not really, but I'm not as adamant. Bloom where you're planted right? I've got family here, friends are starting to pop up, work (I'm trying to deal with a smile) and I love Church and my calling. There are so many reasons to be happy, why do I choose not to notice?
Curses haha I'm trying to get better ! We'll see what happens in the next few weeks !
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Random, yet profound (to me)
"Good moms have sticky floors, messy kitchens, laundry piles, dirty ovens and happy kids"
I love knowing that we came here to have families, to have families for forever. To be sealed in the Temple. To know that our purpose was to bring God's children into the world so they could have this earthly experience. It makes me want to quit everything to start a family since, hey, that's why we're here right? I don't think Chris will agree, but someday :]
So I saw this quote on Pinterest [my latest addiction!] and my thought was cute, I have all those things, minus the happy kids. Then I'm thinking, well they're probably happy in Heaven. And then [this is my profound part] obviously they're in Heaven, they're happy. But are they happy with me and Chris? Are they looking down and watching us thinking, I can't wait to be with them and learn from them and be loved by them? Or are they watching the struggles and disappointments, are they disappointed? Are they just trying to encourage us to be better? Are Chris and I the kind of people our kids can't wait to come to? Does any of this make sense? I just stopped and had this oh goodness moment. What would I think if I was looking down on myself, my future mother... What can I be doing better, what can I being doing more right... I love my kids [I don't have] more than I ever realized I could. It's insane to love someone so much you haven't even met [at least in this life] and plan and prepare so much for. It makes me realize all that I have to do before I can bring such a choice Spirit into this world. I get sad that Chris and I have decided to wait a little bit, but then I'm grateful for this opportunity for him and I to get our act together.
There was a quote 2 conferences ago [I think] that said what you want your kids to know 5 years from now needs to be in your conversations now. I LOVE that quote. I think, even if I don't have kids this moment, if I do in 5 years, we need to be the parents now that we want to be then. We need to be doing things that I'll want my kids to have in their lives. Its not like one day you have kids and flip a switch and tada, you do everything you wanted to perfectly. It takes practice, habit forming practice. I need to get better.
I love knowing that we came here to have families, to have families for forever. To be sealed in the Temple. To know that our purpose was to bring God's children into the world so they could have this earthly experience. It makes me want to quit everything to start a family since, hey, that's why we're here right? I don't think Chris will agree, but someday :]
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